Not Me! Monday ~ Stellan Style

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.


Usually this fun field weekly event takes place over at MckMama's stomping grounds but since Stellan has been in the hospital and surely MckMama has other things on her mind Not Me! Monday has been moved over to here: www.onceuponacline.com. Hopefully some of these great Not Me! posts will life MckMama's spirits! I sure hope so! Here goes!

This is totally not my FIRST Not Me Monday post, ever! I have only thought about it a hundred times but never had the nerve. I am not terrified of Mr. Linky!

I have not found myself on the internet dozens of times a day checking on Stellan and MckMama. And I can't imagine why MckMama would be pissed! (I would be without a doubt!)


I have not found myself praying more the past week than I have in years - praying for a baby I have never held and I woman I have never met but have learned so much from.

My intense praying for Stellan has not sparked a huge desire in me to better my relationship with God! The same God I have let down over the past few years.

I have not found myself on many occasions this week, shutting my bedroom door, kids squealing at each other in the next room and ignoring it all to drop to my knees in prayer. Only to realize when I stood back up I had been on knees pleading for Stellan's health for over 20 minutes with my kiddos unattended! Nope, not ME!!

I did not email everyone in my address book and ask them to please lift Stellan up in prayer and send them all to MckMama's blog to read about the miracle of his birth and his life. I must mention I was not the least bit proud to realize how many of my awesome friends had put Stellan and his entire family on the prayer lists at their respective churches.

I did not find myself sobbing in the shower this week on two occasions: crying for this unfair turn Stellan has taken and crying for MckMama and Prince Charming. My heart and soul ache for them because I cannot imagine what they feel at this moment.


I did not find myself in my robe, fresh from showering, sobbing on my knees in the bathroomr floor with my head to the ground (as Angie at Bring the Rain had requested) praying, begging for Stellan to be healed.


Aside from all the Not Me's! I am praying for Stellan, MckMama and her entire family!!